omg i cant believe it , audrey kitching actually replied my myspace message to her! ok i know , its a really short reply , but at least its better than nothing right ! 

ahh , i feel so happy now. i hope she replies the message i just sent out to her. omg after Dani's O's and my N's (hopefully i can take private o's so i finish same time as dani ^^\m/) we're gg to america tgt ! I hope i gt to meet audrey kitching. that would be the happiest moment of my life ever , ok it wouldnt be the only happy moment of my life if all my other wishes and dreams came true tho. but still , it would be one of those moments id never ever ever forget even after i die. gah , i wish i had all the confidence in the world , i would be able to carry off the style ive been wanting so much to display. ugh , ok i dont even think that made sense but whatever , im just happy. which is saying something bout my whole -#- problem. that whole -#- thing just brought me and my whole world crashing down , i was lower than rock bottom , if thats even possible. totally fell flat on my ass. and in the 2days i missed school , i was actually trying to get back on my feet , and it kinda worked. by thursday , i was kinda already getting there , but more problems just kept cropping up and totally knocked me off my feet all over again. it likes trying so hard to stay afloat in rough waters just to have another wave push you right back into the water. thank god i had danielle right by my side the entire time , ily dani scheidl (: and thanks to her im almost over the whole problem , which is EXTREMELY x10 good cuz i never thought it would happen ^^

THANKS SONIA LIM<3

YOURE LOVED BY ME TOO :D

Can You Find Me - The Summer Set

ugh. heard my dad wake up , i shoved the com away and feigned sleep , heard him go to the toilet , i went back to the com , heard him come out , didnt care , FAILED to hear him get the room keys , did however , hear the door being unlocked , slammed the mac shut covered it with a pillow , feigned sleep again = total failure. didnt work. and he asked me to stop locking the room door. cant get any fucking privacy in this damn house. every conversation i have with my sis will definitely be overheard. every letter from a friend left lying arnd the house will be read. my bags get opened by my mum , she finds things in there that she probably doesnt wanna see , but too bad for her ,  shouldnt keep snooping. & well at least now she knows i have guy friends. and she probably also knows tht the person i was talking to up till 2plus in the morning a few months back wasnt a girl , eventhough i told her it was. i dont like how my 'secret' life is slowly unravelling infront of my parents. id prefer they know nth bout me , or my life or my friends.

& i really need to lose weight. and grow taller. (and see a psychiatrist). i have this really cool image of a polaroid picture i wanna take , but i need ring backings to make the accessories part of the picture happen.does any1 know where to get ring backings !? rly need them. I wanna make scrabble alphabet tile rings ^^ and i really cant wait for aftr eoys. esp for halloween , yeaaaa. tonning out at night safari(maybe) with Janelle <---- ( new spazzzzmoid friend ) I'll make sure i bring my polaroid , and hopefully in the day we can use my supersampler to take spazzer pix (need bright sunlight !!)
at least this ended on a happy note ^^

     School ended at 3.45 today , met D<3 after and headed to Somerset. I was supposed to meet this girl to collect my OSF skirt im getting from her ,

but she ended up not gg to town at all. So im meeting her tomorrow , i hope. I also need to meet the alcohol guy at noon to collect the Raspberry and Peach Absolut's :D

 

So excited i swear. Ive gotta go back home and leave it there aft collecting it though. Thank god its not THAT far. Then meeting Dani and Sonia L at 2pm, heading down to homeclub flea , then to city hall. im probably gonna get my school bag first (my old one's been shedding its weird material on my pinafore) , then head to esplanade for Baybeats !! Gonna watch Dani's cousins band ( Suicide Solution ) perform.Idk if we'll be catching For this cycle before that , @ 5.30pm. SO , today since i didnt meet the girl , we went to orchard central and went to the Dr Martens store. They dont have my baby pink doc marts ): I hope they come back with it in future. We headed to Wisma aft , debated on weather we shld get the checkered heartshape shades frm F21 , but decided not to. We left for home quite early as both of us were EXTREMELY tired. For the past few days ive been getting very little sleep. My eyebags have gotten worse(i didnt know they cld get any worse) , and im like an ancient stone slab in school. I barely survived today , and sitting next to nats is super tiring , cos we always end up slapping/scratching/pinching/whacking(damn hard) each other , lol! And we just totally stuffed our faces during 2nd break , all ystd's hardwork just went down the drain. But nvm , for the next 2 weeks me and dani are gna exercise every single day. Im even gna try running , although my head , ears and jaw start throbbing aft awhile , a very short while. I can feel myself growing fatter with every bite i take  , its sick. And i have to maintain all this even after my sis's party is over. Must be as thin as this girl .

Or at least like Aria , from Paradiso Girls

Lol , yes , like super high expectations , but idc , i have to !! Ok i just realised i dont know what i should wear for tmr , ohman , i look fat in everything. Oh well , i guess ill worry bout it tmr.